five fellowship apps due
You’re gambling with your privilege in an economy of extreme scarcity. It’s a game that has real life, long-term implications, class and otherwise. I think it’s okay to complain and show some of your anxiety. Good luck!
in the next 2 days. i have one personal statement to write, a cover letter to finish, and two research proposals to finish. plus i need to polish and proofread my dissertation proposal.
why am i doing this? no one’s going to give me money anyway, and if i had spent all the time i spent getting ready applying for money i’m not going to get with writing my dissertation, there’s a good chance i might not need the money so much in the first place. this whole grad-school-in-tha-humanities enterprise would seem sisyphean if it didn’t feel like some sort of university-run three-card monte in which everyone but me knows that i’m staking a good deal of my future on an unwinnable game.
blah whine blah complain blah i’m too privileged to be complaining about this blah the fact that i’m a position to complain is obviously a function of my privilege blah why am i sharing this anyway blah.
Source: lowendtheory
